School has relinquished its grip of demand on me for a week. This is a break I will embrace with open arms. A breather from learning about the frequency of a CPU, Command Lines, creating Websites and Scripting is always good! :-)

I woke up this morning feeling pretty decent. The funny thing is that the first thought in my mind was to jump in the car and go to the Prayer Room and spend the day in there. It took a moment to realize that there technically wasn't a Prayer Room in the city to just go to. I'm not sure if I dreamed I was in Kansas City or if I thought one of the HOP's in Toronto was 24/7; either way it was bitter defeat.

The other thought in my head was that I would be able to be in the same non-existent Prayer Room for the entire week. My heart sank when I realized that this wouldn't be a reality and only a fairy tale...

I'm really missing the way life was for me at the beginning of the year. I admit I definitely took that time for granted, and now I'm stuck living with regrets. Why didn't I spend more time in the place of prayer? Why didn't I focus when I was in the prayer room? Why was it so hard to drag myself out of bed in the mornings back then to get to the prayer room? Where was the enthusiasm that I woke up with this morning?

There's a song that keeps running in my head almost day after day when I start thinking like this.

Don't it always seem to go, that you don't know what you've got 'til it's gone?

And even back in Winnipeg, the same thing. I had similar opportunities (not 24/7 but roughly 10/4)and didn't really take full advantage of them. I certainly wish now, that I did. But focusing on days past and living with regret doesn't help the here and now.

The reality is that I technically still have a 24/7 virtual prayer room and a closet somewhere that can become the literal "room". I just have to get myself to that place. The question that I ask myself every day is "how bad do you want this?" He gave me His all. The least I can do is give Him my all, regardless of how small it is.

I do believe, and ^impatiently wait for the day when a House of Prayer will be established in Toronto that will worship and exalt Jesus 24/7, 365 days a year. It may happen while I'm still here, it may not, but what a glorious day it will be when it's established!

On that note, I pray the same thing for Winnipeg. I miss the Peg lots and there isn't a day that goes by where I don't think about it, or the dear friends and family I have out there. And, as I mentioned, I pray for the day when Sanctuary begins to worship Jesus and intercede on behalf of our city and nation 24/7, 365 days/year.

In the meantime, I continue to just say Yes to His will for my life. It's the safest place to be, even when it hurts a little. I count the present sufferings of this time not worthy to be compared to the glory that will be revealed in me! When it's all been said and done, I know I'll be thankful for the journey...

Blessings! :-)