So I am back from a week of counselling out at Calvary Temple Youth Camp, Senior Girls. It was absolutely incredible and I had a blast. I was also pleasantly surprised with how smooth the week panned out.

Not too long after the girls arrived my kiddos dubbed me Mother Spam and it soon became Mama Spam and just Spam. The name has stuck even until now. I had the greatest cabin out there all week and they became my lil' "spamlets". I miss them a ton and I miss all the rest of the girls, staff and camp in general.

But as always when coming home from camp, it's hard to transition back into civilization. Camp is like a large family enclosed on this beautiful almost island-like area and once it's over, you're out of that protective bubble.

The one thing that kinda bites about it is that all the problems you left at home are still there when you come back; the peaceful serenity erased from your memory. You still have to make many decisions, deal with people who are upset with you, spend time with those you've neglected and get back to business-as-usual.

This year particularly has been pretty hard coming back from camp (it's only been a day and a half, heh). I'm seriously missing my girls a LOT and would rather be peacing out with them on a rock or something at camp than dealing with all my issues and drama here haha! With the moving to Toronto looming over my head, suddenly everything I need to do now has to be crammed into a short amount of time. I'm gone from Winnipeg for 3-5 years....potentially longer, and I need to decide which pieces of my life stay here and which ones follow me. I need to figure out what problems need to be dealt with and which ones can be (forgive me) swept under the rug.

I feel this overwhelming conviction to find all the people that I need to forgive and ask forgiveness of before I can flip the page and enter this new chapter in life. That's a really large amount of people and I fear I don't have enough time to do so. Why is it that we think of these things when we have little-no time to do them, instead of early on?!?!

I have to say goodbye to friends and goodbye to communities I've been attached to for the last little while. I have to say goodbye to my parents, whom I've had around me all my life and suddenly they're no longer there...

Yes, this is a very big transition and I'm praying for grace to handle it all well. I wanna do well in school as well as live a life that's worthy of His calling. It's gonna be an adventure in learning to balance the two. If you think of me, pray for me!


Here's a picture of Mama Spam and her Spamlets, courtesy of Tinholt Photography.



O, and Buey's getting fixed and I'll hopefully get her back in the next couple days!

Blessings